Palin is an awesome mom!

So, Sarah and Todd Palin's 17 year old daughter, Bristol, is pregnant and they will be grandparents soon. How cool is that? Pretty cool. Sarah Palin is 44. When I was 22, I became pregnant out of wedlock, and when my son, Andrew, was born my mom and dad were 43 and 44 respectively. Young grandparents are cool grandparents. I say kudos to Bristol Palin for being in love with the father of her child and planning to marry him. I couldn't even claim that respectability over my pregnancy. Unfortunately, it was too much wine, a beach and a cute coworker. He was cute, but, in the end, he was an asshole! He was Catholic and he and his mom came and asked me to "get rid of it". Hmmm, Andrew has ALWAYS been Andrew, never an it. I wasn't Catholic then, needless to say, it put a bad taste in my mouth for Catholicism for a long time afterward.

I applaud the Palins' dedication to the Pro Life cause and the fact that they are a Christian, loving and imperfect (aren't we all) family that sticks by their convictions, stand by each other and makes the right choices...in this case....the choice for life. I think it is wonderful that before us, during this campaign, one of the candidates daughters is underage and pregnant. Now with clarity we can see the huge divide between the Liberal and Conservative candidates. On one side of the aisle is a candidate who sees her daughter's pregnancy as a blessing. The other candidate has said that abortion should always be available because he wouldn't want one of his daughters being punished by an unplanned baby.

God Bless the Palins!

Peace,

Baby Blues

Okay I admit it...I am sad.  But I don't have baby blues in the traditional sense of mild PPD.  I have baby blues because I am blue that I don't have a baby.  My 'baby' is 8 years old.  I have a lot of friends who have had or are having babies this year.  I WANT ONE TOO!  I have written about this before, but I am going to be 42 in a little over a month and I just see time slipping away.  

Some people think I am nuts, but, I really love everything about babies: nursing, cuddling, co-sleeping even diapering!  I like diapering coz I am a cloth diaperer and it's just so earth mama.  I really love it.  I am not the only one either because Elizabeth Foss posted an article on her blog about a year ago about how much she loved cloth diapering.   I am NOT ready to give up babies.  I am just not.  I push this desire down so deeply because it is really heart breaking when it surfaces.  

Yes, I have 3 kids.  Some say I should be grateful for what I have and not complain.  Well, that is the whole point to my complaining.  I AM GRATEFUL for the kids I have and I WANT MORE!!

There are moms out there with 4, 5, 6, 7 8, and more kids.  Why can't I be one of them?  I mean, am I a horrible mother?  I just don't get it. I am not really asking for answers, I am just venting. There are thousands of women who are going to find out they are pregnant today and many will have their babies and many will kill them through abortion.  Why are some allowed such precious gifts just to turn around and trash them?  And why are others like me, or women who have never conceived, barred the right to conceive a child?   

God can make this happen...yet, so far, he hasn't...and you know what?  I am pissed!!!  There, I said it.  I am really mad that He is not allowing me to get pregnant again. UGH!!!

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